You all belong to me now.

Everything is mine. The whole world its tiny people and the cars they drive its all mine, and the best part is I don't even have to share. Not with you, and not with anyone. Every once in a while loose my focus and hopes and dreams. Sometimes its very minor for a short period of time sometimes it lasts a while; a hiatus of some sorts. But this time its been going on far to long. Overboard and overburdened by things I am looking at the bigger picture. The whole world. Yes start from small parts and develop into larger portions. I will consume you all and you will see what it is like to be inside my stomach rotating into a spherical shape, perhaps a new earth will develop from within. With rules and regulations of its own. Its own physical properties based on what my internals will allow. Its my turn to take some bites.

A black tie to wear.

When all things fail keep your head up! So that it maybe chopped off with one clean swoop. Designing isn't one simpleton matter. The complications that follow the sitting down and working are sometimes minuscule and other times tremendous. Ive been staying up wait to late, trapped in my own dream world. In here there is no work, no studying to be done, and no tomorrow or people to bother me. But there is also no work(project). Experimentation yes, but good solid work, i don't think exists in this world of sleepiness and early morning bird songs. The rainy nights are the best because of the background sounds of splashing water, and the preconditions they set to be indoors. its a perfect justification to stay inside sitting behind a computer or with an open book under some blankets. I'm going to have to start wearing a tie, or I'll have to firemyself.

Multiplicity

Trying to focus on one project has failed me many times over. This time I want to try to multiply my projects, efforts, and focus on all of them. Being good at one thing is great and having a specialy will make you a very valuable person. But what if you can't be good at one specific thing? What if your mind is like a beehive buzzing with all these ideas thousands of little bees flying around. Attempting to work together for a better goal. (thats right all those random thoughts and projects are you working together towards a goal/wish/life...) So the trick here is to create an efficient time slice schedule for all the bees. I'm only one person so, doing multiple things at once is going to be hard. Then also I will need a large veriety of subjects and projects to jump back and for between.
On a side note all this beehive business is just tangle-ation of my affections on creating things. coming up next a cluster-

Library

Everyone has a library weather it ranges from retarded blond jokes or to knowing lots of programming languages. Everyone has their own library. Mine is of useless bits and scraps. Pictures of bugs and drawings on napkins. Its real important in its unimportancy. Helps me sleep at times and at other times completely the upset: stay awake wondering about all the small great things in the world. This is what my library consists of. What about yours?

Underground

Almost everyhuman on this planet spends somepart of his or her day walking over an intricate underground infrastructure. Weather its gass pipes or a sewage system or simple wires that run 1000 volts of electricity, most of us never stop and thing of how vast this complex maze is and how much work went into it. What ever your thinking now I can garrenty you that your wrong. Its not what it seems or looks or smells. Infact what really is happening is we are abastracting this underground world and are pretending it dosent exist becase we cant see it. The worst part of all is that its full of rich surprises. Secrets and hidden passageways that we will never see, believe and mostly likely never hear about. Have you seen a bear eat a snake? Or a snake spair some bird eggs? What is the likelyhood of this happening? Not likely, but over the course of time pretty high. Just like how our leaders lie to us about politics and car sales men give us the best deals, we are going about our daily lives with out eyes closed. We live in a box, and when we get hungry some guy throws us a plate of fried eggs. But do you think who cooked the eggs and where they came from. What kind of life that hen lived and what kind of bugs it ate? In this same respect a hidden underground world lies benieth our feet. All you have to do is look down, and you will see.

Lets end this?

Did you really exist if when your dead no one remembers you? And all the things you've ever owned are in soggy cardboard boxes in the middle of the ocean? Does the wind still carry your thoughts and ideals? Will the trees you've once planted grow old and die too? Will life really go on?

10 Thousand Tons of Ideas.

With over thousands of tons of ideas weighing down my poor little head and so little time, i sit here doing nothing of value. And this nothing of value is something of value indeed. I will be greatful for it later in the end when it all adds up to something grand and spectacular. While all of you others have wasted your life doing important things: steping up to the challenge, taking leadership roles, making good use of your time. I will have wasted my type doing random things and enjoying, or even crying over gems that few will have seen or experienced. Every step in the wrong direction is just another step to a right direction on an inverse scale. How many games have you finished, how many books have you read? Songs heard? But how much time have you wasted. Its not just a waste but a sin. An inverse sin. I'll see you on the other side. (My future sticker inlaws)